My realization of the day: Be who you wanna be.
We all have these unattainable dreams and desires in us. Sometimes it even gives us headaches on how to achieve all of them in an instant, since we really love the feeling of it if we can only possibly have it. Well, today I have realized that achieving something does not require much. We only need to make use of what we have and make that a ladder to reaching what we want. I mean, I believe in connecting the dots. For sure, the situation we are in right now will somehow surely connect to our dreams. And everyday is a constant endeavor to getting where we wanna be.
I have always been picturing myself talking infront of many people, inspiring people, sharing a little nugget of my thoughts, hearing the loud applause as I ended my speech and hearing people’s feedback about what I’ve said and all…This imagination really makes me smile often. It’s like a fuel, burning my desire to be the ONE.
As I was teaching one of my students today, as we went on with our discussion about some particular topic. We came to talk about this thing related to “intelligent conversation”. The question was like, “When was the last time you think you really had the most interesting intelligent conversation with someone?” My student answered like, “Toni, for sure the question refers to the past, my past experience…right?” I replied, “Yeah”. She went on, “This experience I’m gonna talk about refers to NOW. My daily experience with you. I feel inspired talking with you everyday, and I have learned a lot. Before, I aimed to improve my speaking skills and to be able to speak English fluently, but when I talk to you, I realize that speaking fluently isn’t all. I want to speak logically too. I realized that it’s not enough to know how to speak, but to be able to know what to talk about is the most important thing I think.”
There! I just felt dumbfounded. I mean I was really, really surprised and at the same time I honestly wanted to cry. I don’t know why, yet somehow it made me feel very proud of myself in an instant. Was I that great, that someone so modest and shy could ever honestly and directly say just the exact words to make me feel so much appreciated?
Now, I realize. Without knowing it, but if only we set our mind to our goal always and put it in our heart, someday, like today, the reality would bring us there. I never knew I am actually realizing my dreams right now. I realized how much I wanted this, to make people happy, to inspire others. And I’m doing it this way. Through teaching. I don’t need a round of applause, I don’t need a bigger audience, I don’t need to sign autographs. This is enough for me to feel contented and happy.
I will never stop here.
Keep inspiring. Be an inspiration.